Fighting quarter-life crisis. Otra vez.

What a stupid name. Quarter-life crisis. I don't think I'll live 100 years anyway, it's quite rare. So it's more like 1/3 life crisis. No, I'm actually making it worse. How come one third of my life already passed and I haven't even noticed?.. It can't be. I'm in denial from now on. It should be ??-life crisis since we don't know how many years exactly we'll live. ??-life crisis. Well, it could be at any age then. I think I felt something like that at the age of thirteen. I was thinking life is not worth living, stupid me. Why would I ever think so?.. So many exciting things happened to me since that 2000-something year. And now I'm laughing while reading my diaries from this year. And I should be laughing ten years from now while reading this blog. If internet is still alive, of course. Maybe we'll be living on some other planet? I should definitely see it then!.

Fighting quarter-life crisis. Again.

They tell us - impossible is nothing.

They tell us - don't be afraid to dream.

They tell us - chase your goals.

They tell us - the world is all yours so take it by the horns.

Well, I don't want anything impossible.

I don't have a single big dream.

Not a single huge goal.

And honestly, it takes so much out of young, single Ukrainian girl to get a visa sometimes it's seems it's not worth it.

I'm just writing and feeling and being in love with life.

With little life gems that are almost the same at all the places.

With music and books and lyrics and movies and tv-shows.

With friends and family and cats.

With chocolate and warmth of teacups.

With bright summer dresses and glitter nail polishes.

With making a progress in my job.

With my job itself (almost all the time).

With discovering new cultures through language learning process.

With boys and kissing, obviously.

All those social ads, those "making dreams come true" talent tv-shows make me doubth myself and feel so small and unhappy.

And I used to feel so happy and so special.

And so confident in what I want.